Tuesday, December 6, 2011

真正愛你的男人是....


抱起來很溫暖,囉唆起來很煩,在身邊討厭,看不見又很懷念的人。
吃剩下一半的麵不要浪費,他會接過去幫妳吃乾淨的人。
大冰腳貼在他大腿弄暖,他即使很冷,也不會把妳腳踢開的人。
一起去大賣場買東西,總是比妳多提兩大袋,還要空出手牽妳的人.
逛街,總是從頭到尾『良性勸導』妳不要亂花錢的人。
生理期來,抓到妳偷吃紅豆冰,會很生氣罵妳的人。
妳生大病,他卻比你還要辛苦的人。
出門前,妳相信他的眼光多於鏡子的一個人。
把買衛生棉已經當成每個月記得採買的男人
吵完架做錯事,還會厚臉皮跑來牽妳手的人。
過了N週年的戀愛紀念日後,就會忘記情人節、聖誕節存在的人。
為了看現場轉播的棒球大聯盟,敢把可愛的妳推到旁邊涼的人。
很少送妳花,卻常愛送妳垃圾袋、衛生棉、水果...的人.
沒事一定會窩在妳家,有事還是窩在妳家,讓妳開始懷疑他是不是沒有朋友的人。
最喜歡看妳開心的大笑,然後也對著妳傻笑的人。
漏接妳電話,就會打爆妳手機的人。
養妳吃飯、養妳看電影、養妳買小東西,動不動就開始為以後練習怎樣包養妳的人。
最害怕討厭聽到妳啜泣,只要聽到妳哭,還是會不辭千里的飛奔到妳身邊的人。
偷偷的為妳做了很多事,卻從來不和你邀功的人。
已經認為自己的手臂是枕頭的人。
膽敢會和妳搶遙控器,最後卻只能陪妳看慾望城市的人。
老是可以讓週遭好朋友感到好奇的人。
他一不在,妳就會心煩意亂心不在焉,而開始很想念他的人...


Monday, December 5, 2011

当我一个人的时候..

当我自己一个人的时候,
真的很想放弃所有人对我的期望..明明知道自己是办不到..明明知道自己是不可能胜任的..明明知道自己没有能力去办,为什么要去做

上课不再简单,
上班不再挑战,
回家不再悠闲,
做人不再阔达,

为什么呢? 都离不开一个钱字.

上课一边要承受不了解课程的压力,还要承受老师给的压迫感,还要承受装懂非懂的压力. 每个星期日都没抹杀,上课提心吊胆,作业似懂非懂,连交学费都伤脑筋,考试也记不如人.

每到交学费,就要变成申手将军,听妈那些有的没的经济压力.
要和公司签和约? 我实在不想.

我能选么? 没有.
我可以选么? 没有
我可以迟点选么? 不能
我能暂时逃避么? 可以.

这是我每次都在做的 - 逃避. 一次又一次的逃避.


有时候问自己,读来干嘛?

Monday, October 31, 2011

If She Dont Love You Anymore ...

1. She would not bug you asking you "do you love me? how much do you love me?" Since she dont love you anymore, whether you love her or not does not matter anymore.

2. She would not try any new outfits in front of you - there is no need to show you and wait for you to praise how beautiful she looks

3. She would not talk much - would not be asking you this and that, and not arguing with you anymore. All is just a waste of time.

4. She would not cry in front you - Tears are women best weapon and there is no need to apply on you anymore.

5. She would not walk with you, when there is a distance in the soul, it reflects in physical movements.

6. Her cellphone would not be reachable. There is no need for you to miss her anymore since she is not thinking of you as well.

7. She starts to keep thoughts to herself. Rather being lonely than having your companionship.

8. Your figure no longer reflects in her eyes, because she simply stops looking at you.

9. She no longer care who is the girl that you are talking over the phone - no jealousy after she let go completely.

10. When you are only earning 10 dollars per month she falls for you, but when you are having your empire and she leaves you - she really dont love you anymore.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Girls versus Guys

I have this big question mark in my head.

Why do guys (most of them) are not able to follow or obey just simple requirements?
Why do guys ask girls why she sulk her face instead of asking what did he do wrong?
Why do guys require girls to be home at a certain time (reason is for her safety) but he stays out late till wee hours?
Why do guys gets angry when a girl does not tell him her whereabouts but he wont simply text or call her knowing she will be worried?
Why do guys thinks he is up in the sky when the girl is already crying because of insecurities?
Why do guys ignore girls when she is in a bad and assume lame excuses that it is just PMS?
Why do guys laugh when girls tells him that she cannot have a good night sleep because she misses him or is just worried about him?

Why?

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

爱情

爱情也就离不开那几句话 :我想你 我爱你 对不起 你好吗

其实大家都是由陌生人的阶段开始,哪怕真的有一天再次还原成为陌生人,也会不以为然。

我不断的提醒自己,心情会被另外一个人牵动着主要原因是因为你太看重他了。。

我不闻不问也许会好点;起码我自己会好一点。

Monday, September 5, 2011

世界上最美的事,就是你兑现了对我幸福的承诺

能说出以上这句话的,是我一个非常幸运的朋友。

要相信一个男人给的承诺是需要勇气的。。
要等一个男人兑现的承诺是需要付出青春的。。
要确定一个男人会兑现他给的承诺是需要无尽的等待。。
要等一个男人说出他会兑现承诺是需要更长的时间
要等一个男人兑现对自己幸福的承诺,真的是需要很大的勇气。

别人说了,你一定相信了么?

所以,我这个朋友,非常幸运。
因为她在这么短的时间里 ,认识,了解,相信一个男人;而那男人也是值得她的付出的。

Sunday, September 4, 2011

中秋节


如果我告诉你
我喜欢中秋节的原因
是因为有兔子在里边。。
估计你会想 :这兔疯子,又来了!

中秋节对每个人来说定义不一样。。
很多都很期待这个节日
估计是除了过冬和新年之外
有个理由请假溜回家团聚

记得小时候,
(从小想法就很奇怪的家伙)
特别期待中秋和新年
婆婆会拜拜,爷爷也会出来赏月吖,东38点西38点。。
平时不爱说话的爷爷也热闹起来;
平时爱板着脸的爸爸也微笑起来;
平时工作忙碌的妈妈也会提早回来;
平时只活在自己世界的妹妹也从金星回来;
平时爱闹爱玩的表哥更是无法无天的乐起来。。。
整个家突然间复活了。

所以我曾经叫这两个节日为:29复活日。

其实现在在这个节日里,特别怀念爷爷。

家里的小院子还没铲平之前,有个小平台,阶梯类是的东西
爷爷和我就会合力的把整个小平台点满蜡烛,
然后深深吸一口气把它们吹熄;
在门边挂满纸灯笼,
然后搬个凳子坐下来
静静的乘凉。

爷爷给我的感觉一向都离不开一个静字。
平时不爱说话的他 感觉都难以亲近,
就是这种怪癖
引起我爱欺负他的冲动:
收音机突然没有声音,是我关了总电;
上厕所突然漆黑一片,是我关了电灯;
听者收音机会突然转台,是我扭了电台;
进入房间会被躲在床角的暗影子吓坏;是我卧在那里等他进来。

无可否认,我爷爷的心脏比任何一个老人都强。

没有爷爷一起度过的中秋,已经不少了。
望着隐约闪烁的灯笼
突然发现
眼泪早已在泪眶
决了堤。

最后一次与爷爷过的中秋,月亮特别圆,特别近。

那个坏蛋爷爷,一定不知道躲到谁家过中秋了。


我又想你了,爷爷。

温度计



前些日子,我当上了病兔公主.
虽然冒上公主之名,
却一点都不好受..
我得负责:
打喷嚏,流着两行鼻涕 还有 发烧

吃了该死的感冒药 感觉整个人都神游了.

虽然意外的收获是可以在家坐着什么都不管,
什么都不用理
连续在HBO看了4部电影

感觉还是欠佳。。

下次要看电影 + 做废人 
还是请假好了。

反正我现在还请得起。。哇咔咔咔 >_<


Monday, August 29, 2011

原来

当一个人告诉你,你可以把所有的心事都告诉他的时候,请你自己也要保留一些..不是每个人的心都能负荷你那没有经过过滤,经过理智思考,毫无掩饰的心事..

虽然知道,有时候这么想不理智,不对, 可是我想问的是,你能压抑自己的感觉么? 一件事情让你难过,让你难受,让你失望.. 你可以控制么? 

如果可以控制,如果可以先思考再选择说要不要难过,要不要失望..这不是心事.也许那是心情吧...

一个你相信可以什么都托付给他的人让你失望是一种怎么样的感觉?跟被出卖的感觉是一样的 -我24岁,真正的了解,感受到了..

女人谈心,只想聆听者.就算你给的意见很不符合,也没关系, 她只是需要一个聆听者..

我又回到了原点..我还是别人的一个负担.一种只会带给别人伤感的人..

原来还是我自己好,起码我无论如何都不会放弃,不会嫌弃我自己的人.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

面子书

在面子书上看见黑人老大的update :

陈建州:她是我的超级天后。。我好骄傲有这么棒这么会唱的老婆!!!




无可否认,在心底某一处有种酸溜溜的感觉 -我想每个女孩都想自己的另一半会因为自己而引以为傲吧。。

可是我怎么会感觉 


陪我逛街买东西,你总提不起劲;


陪我做一些我感兴趣的事情你有点闷闷的感觉;


跟我聊电话会没有话题;

 
等我的时候总是要按电话,
 

让你帮我拎东西你说裤袋放了太多东西走路不方便,



我不开心你不是抱着我反而自己发闷气然后走开。。



也许我自己想太多?太敏感了?我自己太没有自信?


感觉时好时坏,可是我很侥幸自己早已经学会了,所以很快就可以把这些负面和不开心的心情挥霍掉。。


当缺乏安全感的时刻来临,我自己躲远远的,不想不听不说不哭不闹不气 

咕噜一声吞掉就好。。

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Shower Cap & Puppy



It always about the creativity that makes your morning - I found mine unbelievable ultimate sensitive sense of humor in the morning.

I was leaving my house for work, when I came to the cross road where a scene took place and kept me laughing for the whole morning.

Just beside the peaceful road, stands this auntie in her shower cap and sleeping gown with a tooth brush stuck in her mouth with a puppy tug under her arm.

I am not sure what tickle my laughing nerves but I was laughing away when I saw her.

The puppy looks so lost and confused where the auntie has this blur + slumber + innocent look on her face...

Its so easy to stay happy and it is also just a snap of your fingers to make yourself solemn - To be happy or not, choices are yours.

I just realized a friend of mine from primary school Standard 3 B class is working in Prometric finance team. And I just so happen ask her name ( I had been observing her for the past few days) it found out that she is one of my close friends during those days!

Phewwwwww ~ I am drifting on to memory lane again ..

This time with Choki Choki of course .. LOL

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Another Year Has Gone By.

Checking from the last post I posted it was already year (LOL). People use to say a year passes in a blink of the eye but hey, alot of things happened and took place.
Noticing the little parts that changed in me guess i am now ready to head for the 2nd milestone.
Seeing what i didnt expected and seeing what is not expected is always never a easy change to accommodate.

Here i am - in 2011 - Stronger. Independent. Matured. Capable and unfortunately older.