Sundays

Sitting aimlessly in front of the pc on a early sunday morning allows my deepest dullness sink into me. Ham ham is trying on a new game.. and my mom is watching hk drama beside me.. Looks like i am the only one left free on this piece of land. Today i spend almost the whole day with ham ham walking around, flipping thru game cd folders in the games booth, looking at all sorts of stuff like comics, daily stuff bla bla.

It seem to rain all day today, I gotta admit its nice weather but i hate the dampness it brings to the air .. =.= TOO MUCH. The puddles on the ground wet my toes and my long pants which i hate so much that i could not even explain it here.. they just make me feel gross and i have those kind of imagination where some ugly slurpy bugs are crawling all over my feet .... *yicks*

A week has gone by.. another job hunting week will start again.. Actually the previous interview did make me disappointed and left out for those words that the person in charge used on me. Haha. Maybe i shud admit that i am not talented in drawing anything anymore although i had been learning when i was young. He told me in the face that i am not suitable for this post and in the near future just sit back and think carefully what i shud become. ARGHHH it hurts but he is damn true.

Honestly, I dont really have a clear state of mind what i am suppose to do or what job i am suppose to apply for. Unlike others, they might have a clear vision and direction of what kind of jobs and posts they are ought to be fit in. Me? I am just like the piece of meat stuck in the middle of the sandwhich - just stuck in between. I have no idea, no direction what post i am fit for or to be more precise - what post suits me. Multimedia seems to be a broad major where it is like an ocean without shores. DAMN IT.

I am tired but i dont feel like sleeping so early. It is alwaiz like a waste of time for me to sleep so early and spend most of the time in my life on sleeping. As my mom said, sleep is sweet. Yea, you're rite mum. Just that only SOMETIMES. Hahaa... Yaya, i am still young, and i bet this why people are aging so fast nowadays.. hoho